In order to lose weight one must eat below a certain number of calories per day.
In order to gain weight one must eat above a certain number of calories per day.
That number is called “maintenance.”
Since dropping the last few stubborn pounds I have been sitting at maintenance...nothing above, nothing below...a flat line.
With that comes a certain degree of predictability, which suited me well during the months following my brother’s death. It allowed for structure during a time when everything felt like it was spiraling out of control. I am grateful for that.
Looking back, it is clear that I’ve been maintaining in more than one facet of my life.
I recently purchased a t-shirt. It has a donut on it (anyone who knows me knows the way I feel about donuts) and it says “Bulking Like a Boss.” I started lifting heavier, eating more and running less.
I am ready to move past maintenance.
“We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be."
-May Sarton
