Showing posts with label clarity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label clarity. Show all posts

Sunday, February 2, 2014

knives

to see you who for who you truly are...too afraid to stand on your own...too selfish to free yourself from the feelings for a past love before entering a relationship with me

feeling cheated, knowing that everything hinged on your fear of being alone...it was all a lie...all a lie

you think you are whole, but I see your parts scattered along the wayside. don't come running to me when you need help rebuilding.

that place i had reserved in my heart for you...you don't deserve it


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Wednesday, January 22, 2014

clarity

Earlier in the week I took my CX bike to Batsto to ride the trails. My mountain bike has been sitting in the basement collecting dust. I purchased it over a year ago and have only been on it a handful of times because the local parks are too challenging for me. I am afraid of getting hurt or falling off the side of a cliff. Batsto is flat. The trail twists and turns in certain sections, but it's not overly technical. If I could ride it on my CX bike then I will be fine on a mountain bike.

I had no idea what to expect while riding the 18 mile trail. When I first started pedaling, I was a bit tentative, accelerating and braking inconsistently, but then I found more of a flow...until I body checked a small tree...caught a root with my back tire...missed another tree head on...went off the trail and into the brush...caught my hamstring on the down tube when slamming on the brakes to avoid flipping over a huge log that came out of nowhere. This went on for nearly two hours. What I finally realized was that I needed to look ahead of me...look ahead to where I want to go...it made the most sense, after all, in every race I won this season, not once did I look over my shoulder.

The lesson that I learned that day is so valuable because of the way it transfers into every day life. The past is behind me and I have no intentions on going back there...stay focused on where I want to go and I will stay on track.



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